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I was in a serious car accident in June 1986.  I was driving in the central lane of a motorway, it was raining and although only just past midday, very dark.  I realised a car in front of me had slowed down sharply, and I didn’t want to brake for fear of skidding, so I steered right to the fast lane, and my car aquaplaned and went into a spin.  I was struggling to control it, when suddenly I was not in the car any more.

I was in a black tunnel, or funnel, shooting through it incredibly fast.  I was spinning, too, yet it was a different movement from that of the car.  I felt I was shooting through this tunnel, head first, spinning round the edges – like water going down a plug, or like a coil.  There was a loud roaring – it was very noisy, like the moment of birth.  I had no time to feel afraid.  I was very interested in what was happening, but I felt completely safe……

Around me, as the tunnel began to lighten, there were presences.  They were not people, and I didn’t see anything but I was aware of their minds.  They were debating whether I should go back.  This was what made me so safe; I knew that I had absolutely no responsibility to make any decision.  This is an almost unknown situation for me, and it was wonderfully liberating.  I also knew I could not influence what decision they made, but that whatever it should be it would be right.  There was total wisdom and goodness in them.

I did not hear voices or words, so I don’t know how I was aware of this discussion, but it was not only one presence; it was as if there were many minds gathered on each side into one, and these two debated the decision about me.  I didn’t know the outcome, but I was intensely interested and peaceful.

Then there was nothing.

Then I opened my eyes; I was astonished because I was in my body, in the car and I hadn’t expected to be.

I thought ‘oh they’ve put me back!’ and I think I was a little disappointed and I heard a sort of echo from the minds which gave me to understand I didn’t have permission to go yet, because my children only have one parent.  It was quite right of course, but I have to admit I hadn’t thought of them at all……