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Freddie Mercury - Living On My Own
Identifier
022319
Type of Spiritual Experience
Background
Freddie Mercury – His Life in his own Words [compiled by Greg Brooks and Simon Lupton]
I'm just very frivolous and I like to enjoy myself, and what better way to do it than on stage in front of 300,000 people? I just cook on stage! To me playing in front of a big crowd - that kind of surge - is unequalled. The feeling I get from the audience is greater than sex. I love the excitement of it and I always feel that I want more - more more more. I'm just a musical tart! That’s my nature, but that's not what I'm like in real life. When I come off stage it takes me hours to unwind and transform back into my real self. My character is built up of all kinds of ingredients and the Freddie on stage is just one element of me………
I’m so powerful on stage that I seem to have created a monster. When I'm performing I'm an extrovert, yet inside I'm a completely different man. On stage I’m a big macho, sexual object and I'm very arrogant, so most people dismiss me because of that. But I'm not like that really. They don't know what I’m really like underneath. People think I'm an ogre. Some girls hissed at me in the street once, saying, "You devil!" They think I'm really nasty, but that's only on stage.
Off stage? Well I'm certainly not an ogre. Of course the stagey streak in me where I love to jump around and be volatile is real, but people don’t realise there's a lot more. They expect me to be the same in my personal life as well. They say, "Come on Freddie,, perform. Give us some excitement."
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Success has brought me millions of pounds,, and worldwide adulation, but not the thing we all need - a loving relationship. You can be loved by so many thousands of people, yet still be the most loneliest person. And the frustration of that makes it even worse, because it's hard for people to understand that you can be lonely.
A description of the experience
Freddie Mercury - Living On My Own
"Living On My Own"
Sometimes I feel I'm gonna break down and cry
Nowhere to go nothing to do with my time
I get lonely so lonely living on my own
Sometimes I feel I'm always walking too fast
And everything is coming down on me down on me
I go crazy oh so crazy living on my own
Dee do de de dee do de de
I don't have no time for no monkey business
Dee do de de dee do de de
I get so lonely lonely lonely lonely yeah
Got to be some good times ahead
Sometimes I feel nobody gives me no warning
Find my head is always up in the clouds in a dreamworld
It's not easy living on my own
Dee do de de dee do de de
I don't have no time for no monkey business
Dee do de de dee do de de
I get so lonely lonely lonely lonely yeah
Got to be some good times ahead
Dee do de de dee do de de
I don't have no time for no monkey business
Dee do de de dee do de de
I get so lonely lonely lonely lonely yeah
Got to be some good times ahead